Such a lovely study this fine day!
I was reading in John 1 today, and was impressed with John's response to the pharisees who came to question him during his preaching. They ask him who he is, why he's baptizing, and what on earth he is doing in the wilderness: "Who are thou? That we may give an answer to them that sent us. What sayest thou of thyself?" (John 1:22) I'd probably be wondering the same thing- some dude out in the boonies eating bugs, dunking people in water. Kinda odd, if you think about it. However, instead of questioning who he is, or trying to come up with some kind of elaborate explanation, John knows exactly who he is and why he's there:
"I am the voice of one crying in the wilderness, making straight the way of the Lord, as said the prophet Esais." (John 1:23)
Man. I love that answer. John knows that he is there as a messenger of God the Father, there to prepare the hearts and minds of his fellow man to receive Christ as the savior and redeemer of the world. There was a lot of corruption, some apostasy, and just plain confusion about the word of God at the time. The Pharisees and other groups were so wrapped up in the little actions of the gospel, that many of them had no idea why they were actually doing what they were doing. But because John recognized his role in relation to both Christ and Heavenly Father, he was able to help others recognize truth for themselves and get ready for Christ's arrival.
I loved that question that the pharisees asked John: "What sayest thou of thyself?" made me think of my own questions:
Who am I? What do I stand for? What do I believe?
Am I living up to my potential? Am I loving the journey?
Am I faithfully, willingly, and lovingly living and keeping my covenants?
Do I understand my role as a disciple of Christ?
Do I understand who I am as a child of God?
I may still be in my process of figuring out the answers to all of these, and many more questions- but I love the example that John is in this chapter. I love that he boldly states exactly who he is, how he understands his role in God's plan, and is excited to share his knowledge and testimony of Christ with everyone around him. I want to get there. I know I can- I know I can develop my eternal vision (my jarvis, if you will), and discover who it is God wants me to be in the process.
Thank you so much for the wonderful studies- I love ya!
Emily
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Applying the Gospel to Iron-Man and Pitbull: Self-Destructive Tendencies
The newest avenger movie has actually been helping me in my life. I think there is a reason people are all of a sudden so into superhero movies. The battle between good and evil, whether external or internal, is raging. Everyone has their own battles. And the character of Iron-man is helping me through mine.
But before we get to Iron-man, I want to talk about Pitbull's new song "Time of Our Lives." I know this seems a little odd...especially because I'm talking about spiritual things here, but just bear with me. It should make sense by the end. Let's hope anyways.
Pitbull reminds us that "Everybody's gone through something." The battle of the song's character is that he has been working so hard (I won't directly quote that part;), but he still can't pay his rent. In his trial, what does he do? Despite his stress, he wants to have the time of his life. So "you roll it up, pour it up, drink it up, throw it up tonight." Doesn't this perfectly describe what we do in moments of hardship? When we are feeling restricted by life, whether that is because of others, ourselves, sins, weaknesses, circumstances, we tend to try to exert control over things. And more often than not, we are exerting control in a self-destructive way.
Now I may not have a problem with "rolling" or "drinking" it up, but I DO have a problem with being self-destructive in other ways. I tend to emotionally beat myself up. I tend to overly criticize myself. I tend to restrict myself on things I know I need the most. For example, sometimes I know that I've reached my limit on homework, work, computer time, whatever the limit is. And instead of thinking, I've reached my limit, I need a break, I just keep going. I don't listen to what my body, mind, spirit, and heart are telling me.
Another example: before my mission, I had a hard time reading my scriptures at times because I didn't really understand why it was important. My testimony was still developing about them. Now, I know how good and necessary the scriptures are for me. And sometimes I won't read my scriptures precisely because I know they are good for me. A part of me says, "Just do it anyways." The other part distracts me or restricts me, almost as if I'm punishing myself for just...existing.
I know these sound like small things, but they really make a big difference. At times I put myself in situations or relationships that deep down I know will hurt me. Or I give what deep down I know I don't have. I run faster than I have to strength to do. I don't give myself a break when I need it. Little by little, I chip away at myself until I feel I have nothing left. Until I reach a breaking point. Sometimes breaking points just happen. But sometimes we create them.
I still haven't figured out the reason why I do that. I think that will be my next discovery, but maybe you have some ideas as to why since you've been thinking about this too. Is it that we want to punish ourselves? Is it that we are wanting to control destruction? Is it that we want to control what hurts us? I think those last two are getting somewhere.
So here is where Iron-man comes in. Just think about the last Avengers movie for a second. Ultron is a physical representation of Tony Stark's destructive side. He thinks that by destroying the world, he is saving the world. Jarvis, on the other hand, is a healthier, smarter, calmer representation of Tony. We all have our own Ultron who somehow thinks that by destroying us, he is saving us. Helping us lead freer, happier lives. When in reality, he is only leaving us empty, afraid, destroyed, with LESS control.
This Ultron guy reminds me of someone. As I was reading The Infinite Atonement today, I came a cross a scripture that called Satan "the destroyer" (1 Corinthians 10:10). Our natural man is ultron. And we must put off the natural man. We must overcome Ultron. And how did the Avengers overcome Ultron? By working together with...THE VISION. Our eternal perspective, the gospel, is our ticket to overcoming the natural man. We must create THE VISTION and hold onto it as we fight our own Ultrons, because without it, we cannot win.
I am so grateful for the power of the Atonement in my own life. We can overcome our self-destructive tendencies and begin anew every single day. This life is a process, and sometimes I get frustrated with my own process, but I am learning how to enjoy it as I go and maintain inner peace with my knowledge that despite my own natural man, through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, I can become whole and learn each day to more fully LIVE.
Love ya,
Rachel
But before we get to Iron-man, I want to talk about Pitbull's new song "Time of Our Lives." I know this seems a little odd...especially because I'm talking about spiritual things here, but just bear with me. It should make sense by the end. Let's hope anyways.
Pitbull reminds us that "Everybody's gone through something." The battle of the song's character is that he has been working so hard (I won't directly quote that part;), but he still can't pay his rent. In his trial, what does he do? Despite his stress, he wants to have the time of his life. So "you roll it up, pour it up, drink it up, throw it up tonight." Doesn't this perfectly describe what we do in moments of hardship? When we are feeling restricted by life, whether that is because of others, ourselves, sins, weaknesses, circumstances, we tend to try to exert control over things. And more often than not, we are exerting control in a self-destructive way.
Now I may not have a problem with "rolling" or "drinking" it up, but I DO have a problem with being self-destructive in other ways. I tend to emotionally beat myself up. I tend to overly criticize myself. I tend to restrict myself on things I know I need the most. For example, sometimes I know that I've reached my limit on homework, work, computer time, whatever the limit is. And instead of thinking, I've reached my limit, I need a break, I just keep going. I don't listen to what my body, mind, spirit, and heart are telling me.
Another example: before my mission, I had a hard time reading my scriptures at times because I didn't really understand why it was important. My testimony was still developing about them. Now, I know how good and necessary the scriptures are for me. And sometimes I won't read my scriptures precisely because I know they are good for me. A part of me says, "Just do it anyways." The other part distracts me or restricts me, almost as if I'm punishing myself for just...existing.
I know these sound like small things, but they really make a big difference. At times I put myself in situations or relationships that deep down I know will hurt me. Or I give what deep down I know I don't have. I run faster than I have to strength to do. I don't give myself a break when I need it. Little by little, I chip away at myself until I feel I have nothing left. Until I reach a breaking point. Sometimes breaking points just happen. But sometimes we create them.
I still haven't figured out the reason why I do that. I think that will be my next discovery, but maybe you have some ideas as to why since you've been thinking about this too. Is it that we want to punish ourselves? Is it that we are wanting to control destruction? Is it that we want to control what hurts us? I think those last two are getting somewhere.
So here is where Iron-man comes in. Just think about the last Avengers movie for a second. Ultron is a physical representation of Tony Stark's destructive side. He thinks that by destroying the world, he is saving the world. Jarvis, on the other hand, is a healthier, smarter, calmer representation of Tony. We all have our own Ultron who somehow thinks that by destroying us, he is saving us. Helping us lead freer, happier lives. When in reality, he is only leaving us empty, afraid, destroyed, with LESS control.
This Ultron guy reminds me of someone. As I was reading The Infinite Atonement today, I came a cross a scripture that called Satan "the destroyer" (1 Corinthians 10:10). Our natural man is ultron. And we must put off the natural man. We must overcome Ultron. And how did the Avengers overcome Ultron? By working together with...THE VISION. Our eternal perspective, the gospel, is our ticket to overcoming the natural man. We must create THE VISTION and hold onto it as we fight our own Ultrons, because without it, we cannot win.
I am so grateful for the power of the Atonement in my own life. We can overcome our self-destructive tendencies and begin anew every single day. This life is a process, and sometimes I get frustrated with my own process, but I am learning how to enjoy it as I go and maintain inner peace with my knowledge that despite my own natural man, through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, I can become whole and learn each day to more fully LIVE.
Love ya,
Rachel
That They Might Understand
Luke 24: The Resurrection and Some After Stories
"Their eyes were holden, that they should not know him." (Luke 24:16)....then at the end of their conversation, "and their eyes were opened and they knew him." (31)
Likewise,we are given the information we need in the time we need (God's time) in order to grow and be fully converted for ourselves. If Christ had identified himself right away, they probably wouldn't have gained all the insights and answers they did when they didn't know who he was.
How did Christ promote the most effective learning environment for the two he was speaking with?
Ohhh- I just connected it all together!! Christ is teaching others to find the doctrine of the resurrection for themselves! Whhhhat! Throughout the chapter, he points people to the scriptures- the dudes on the road he hung with, the apostles, etc. because they don't understand the doctrine of the resurrection for themselves.
"Ought Christ to have suffered these things, and to enter his glory? And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, he expounded unto them in all the scriptures the things concerning himself." (26,27)
"And he said unto them, these are the words which I spake unto you, while I was yet with you. that all things must be fulfilled, which were written in the law of Moses, and the in prophets, and in the psalms, concerning me. Then he opened their understanding, that they might understand the scriptures. And said unto them, Thus it is written, and thus it behoved Christ to suffer , and to rise from the dead the third day." (44-46)
Until you understand the WHY behind something, you aren't going to believe it. And until you believe something, you aren't going align yourself to whatever it is you believe. In order for repentance to be true repentance, you need to believe in a true principle or doctrine. Once you align your actions with the doctrine or principle (repentance at it's finest, folks), your faith turns to knowledge, and eventually, you develop your own personal testimony of said belief.
It all starts with faith- with our hearts, our mindsets, and desires.
In order for repentance to be true repentance, I must first believe a doctrine or principle to be true. Once I believe it, I put that belief into action and test it out! During this trial period, I will mess up time and time again. And even after I feel like I have learned a specific principle time and time again, I'll still mess up. But that's what it take to truly learn for ourselves. It's like any sport- you only really understand the rules once you get out there and make a butt load of mistakes in the process. As much as I hate how cliche this saying is, it is totally true: You miss 100% of the shots you don't take. You can't grow if you aren't making mistakes!! That is a natural part of life! A wise person once said, if you aren't falling while you're skiing, you're not skiing hard enough. I think that was my dad. But who knows.
And yeah- you are going to get hurt- some injuries will take longer to recover than others. You will loose some games, and you'll win some too. But as you keep trying your best, you WILL improve over time. It will come naturally to dribble the ball down the court without thinking twice about how to dodge your obstacles. The things that used to take you hours to master will come in a matter of seconds. It becomes instinct- part of our nature, muscle memory, if you will. It doesn't happen overnight. It takes time, consistent practice, and patience with ourselves to get to where we want to be. Similarly, as we strive to align our hearts and actions with God, it is SO hard to make those initial changes. But it's not impossible. We are given all the tools we need. We just need to get out here and do it. Life. Ain't it great?
I sure do hope my thoughts are able to make their way from my jumbled brain to you in a way that makes sense- but I feel like I learned a ton today! I hope you are able to glean something from this brain dump ;)
Much love,
Emily
*I apologize for the lack of consistency in sticking to one sport for my analogy- it made sense in my head
- True Repentance (change of heart)- Is it true repentance if I keep making the same mistakes over and over?
- How can I allow my mistakes to make me more empathetic, more compassionate, and more firm and committed in the truth?
- How did the disciples gain their own testimony in the absence of Christ?
"Their eyes were holden, that they should not know him." (Luke 24:16)....then at the end of their conversation, "and their eyes were opened and they knew him." (31)
Likewise,we are given the information we need in the time we need (God's time) in order to grow and be fully converted for ourselves. If Christ had identified himself right away, they probably wouldn't have gained all the insights and answers they did when they didn't know who he was.
How did Christ promote the most effective learning environment for the two he was speaking with?
- Asked questions: DON'T STOP ASKING QUESTIONS to myself, God, AND everyone around me. Remain curious. Remain astonished by life.
- Encouraging them to share- verbalizing their own testimonies= GROWTH yo
- Started where they understood: Moses, other old testament scripture to solidify and testify of his role as savior and redeemer of the world.
- Recognized the Spirit as the true teacher. He created an environment where everyone felt safe, listened to, respected, and ready to receive. He spoke the words of God, and because of this, the spirit was able to confirm what he was saying as true.
Ohhh- I just connected it all together!! Christ is teaching others to find the doctrine of the resurrection for themselves! Whhhhat! Throughout the chapter, he points people to the scriptures- the dudes on the road he hung with, the apostles, etc. because they don't understand the doctrine of the resurrection for themselves.
"Ought Christ to have suffered these things, and to enter his glory? And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, he expounded unto them in all the scriptures the things concerning himself." (26,27)
"And he said unto them, these are the words which I spake unto you, while I was yet with you. that all things must be fulfilled, which were written in the law of Moses, and the in prophets, and in the psalms, concerning me. Then he opened their understanding, that they might understand the scriptures. And said unto them, Thus it is written, and thus it behoved Christ to suffer , and to rise from the dead the third day." (44-46)
Until you understand the WHY behind something, you aren't going to believe it. And until you believe something, you aren't going align yourself to whatever it is you believe. In order for repentance to be true repentance, you need to believe in a true principle or doctrine. Once you align your actions with the doctrine or principle (repentance at it's finest, folks), your faith turns to knowledge, and eventually, you develop your own personal testimony of said belief.
It all starts with faith- with our hearts, our mindsets, and desires.
In order for repentance to be true repentance, I must first believe a doctrine or principle to be true. Once I believe it, I put that belief into action and test it out! During this trial period, I will mess up time and time again. And even after I feel like I have learned a specific principle time and time again, I'll still mess up. But that's what it take to truly learn for ourselves. It's like any sport- you only really understand the rules once you get out there and make a butt load of mistakes in the process. As much as I hate how cliche this saying is, it is totally true: You miss 100% of the shots you don't take. You can't grow if you aren't making mistakes!! That is a natural part of life! A wise person once said, if you aren't falling while you're skiing, you're not skiing hard enough. I think that was my dad. But who knows.
And yeah- you are going to get hurt- some injuries will take longer to recover than others. You will loose some games, and you'll win some too. But as you keep trying your best, you WILL improve over time. It will come naturally to dribble the ball down the court without thinking twice about how to dodge your obstacles. The things that used to take you hours to master will come in a matter of seconds. It becomes instinct- part of our nature, muscle memory, if you will. It doesn't happen overnight. It takes time, consistent practice, and patience with ourselves to get to where we want to be. Similarly, as we strive to align our hearts and actions with God, it is SO hard to make those initial changes. But it's not impossible. We are given all the tools we need. We just need to get out here and do it. Life. Ain't it great?
I sure do hope my thoughts are able to make their way from my jumbled brain to you in a way that makes sense- but I feel like I learned a ton today! I hope you are able to glean something from this brain dump ;)
Much love,
Emily
*I apologize for the lack of consistency in sticking to one sport for my analogy- it made sense in my head
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
There Goes the Fear Again
Questions for this day:
How do I make permanent LASTING change?
Why is it so hard for me to stick to my goals? How can I change that?
While reading in Luke 23, I was focusing on Pilot. He was basically the last voice in determining whether Christ would be officially condemned or released, so he had a pretty dang big role in how the crucifixion all went down. He knew what was right in his heart, and he could find no logical reason to condemn Christ. He expressed multiple times throughout the trial that he found him innocent of stirring up the people:
"And he said unto them a third time, Why, what evil hath he done?I have found no cause of death in him: I will therefore chastise him, and let him go." (Luke 23:22)
So if Pilot honestly believed Christ to be innocent, why did he cave? He even asked those who wanted to condemn Christ why in the world they were doing this? If there was reasonable doubt in his heart, why did he act against his desire and instinct to pardon Christ?
FEAR. Fear of man, of losing power, being seen as weak or merciful, fear of disagreeing with the people and others of influence that may cost him his current position- I could go on and on. There really could be unlimited explanations as to why he would blatantly ignore his gut- but bottom line- his fear of man came before his fear of God. And that is gonna get him into a whole lot of trouble, I tell you what, in the eternal scheme of things. So what can we learn from Pilot's actions?
How do I make permanent LASTING change?
Why is it so hard for me to stick to my goals? How can I change that?
While reading in Luke 23, I was focusing on Pilot. He was basically the last voice in determining whether Christ would be officially condemned or released, so he had a pretty dang big role in how the crucifixion all went down. He knew what was right in his heart, and he could find no logical reason to condemn Christ. He expressed multiple times throughout the trial that he found him innocent of stirring up the people:
"And he said unto them a third time, Why, what evil hath he done?I have found no cause of death in him: I will therefore chastise him, and let him go." (Luke 23:22)
So if Pilot honestly believed Christ to be innocent, why did he cave? He even asked those who wanted to condemn Christ why in the world they were doing this? If there was reasonable doubt in his heart, why did he act against his desire and instinct to pardon Christ?
FEAR. Fear of man, of losing power, being seen as weak or merciful, fear of disagreeing with the people and others of influence that may cost him his current position- I could go on and on. There really could be unlimited explanations as to why he would blatantly ignore his gut- but bottom line- his fear of man came before his fear of God. And that is gonna get him into a whole lot of trouble, I tell you what, in the eternal scheme of things. So what can we learn from Pilot's actions?
- Trust your own perceptions
- Be willing to ACT on your perceptions
- Recognize you are accountable to God before anyone else
Simple study today, but powerful nonetheless. I know that this is an area I definitely need to work on- putting my complete trust in God and making sure I am accountable to him before anyone else in my life. And I know as becoming accountable to God becomes my highest priority, my heart will be more naturally inclined to fulfill the goals that I set for myself, and through time, consistent and diligent effort, I will be able to do anything I put my mind to with God's help! And how do we remain accountable to God?
- Consistent, heartfelt prayer
- Constantly studying his word
- Putting what we learn into action
- Admitting, owning, and doing our best to overcome our mistakes through the atonement of Christ
Thanks so much for all the epiphanies and insights this weekend, dear Rachel. I hope you have a fabulous week!
Love,
Emily
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Remember that WHY
I was reading in Luke 22 today, and was really touched by how well Christ is able to live in the moment with his disciples. In this chapter, Christ prepares for his entire purpose, performing the atonement for our sins in the garden of Gethsemane, followed by his torture, death on the cross, and resurrection. Without these events, his entire ministry, although insightful and life changing, would have been absolutely meaningless. Without the atonement, even if each of us decided to live a life aligned with his teachings, it'd be impossible to make it back to the presence of God again.
Anyhows, Christ knows that this will be the most difficult, terrifying, and most painful thing he has ever and will ever do in his life. Despite this knowledge, he is able to make the most of the time he has left with his disciples and not only enjoy his last passover (aka his last supper) with them, but also turn it into a teaching opportunity for everyone there. Man oh man, what a guy, right? He says, "I have desired to eat this passover with you before I suffer," as they are about to eat.
So what enables him to focus on those around him, instead of having a pity party (which would totally be fine, knowing what it is he's about to endure and experience)? What keeps him from shutting down, wanting to be alone, and taking out any fears or concerns he may have on those closest to him?
I feel it all comes down to one thing: he remembers the WHY. He knows why he is performing the atonement in the first place- to allow each and everyone of his disciples (and the rest of us) an opportunity to overcome the effects of physical death, as well as each on of our shortcomings, mistakes, imperfections, etc. Because he knew and internalized these reasons- he kept his mind focused on the eternal, Christ had the ability to sit down with these men and teach them the why as well. Not only that- but he was able to sit down with both Peter AND Judas- both were to betray him, in two totally different ways- and he did not attack either one of them. He did not tell either of them to leave. He simply stated what would happen, and continued to spend his evening with those closest to him. He knew both their hearts (Peter acting out of fear and weakness, while Judas was acting selfishly) and recognized the atonement he was about to perform would make up for every unjust action about to take place.
He tells Peter, "When thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren." For some reason, I thought he only told Peter this after his resurrection, but I didn't realize Christ said this to Peter beforehand. Christ knows where each one of us is individually on our journey. He knew where Peter was spiritually in that moment, and he knew he'd mess up that night, multiple times. But Christ also knew who Peter was to become. He knew that Peter had the potential to choose to become one of the greatest apostles, someone on whom he could completely rely. And it was Peter's mistakes that enabled him to become that great apostle.
A little further on in the conversation, Christ asks,
"When I sent you without purse, let him take it, and likewise his scrip: and he hath no sword, let him sell his garment and buy one." (Luke 22:35-38)
When the apostles first set out with Christ, they had simply their faith to go off of. As they spent more time with him, their faith grew, their knowledge expanded, and their hearts and actions began to change as their understanding increased. But they definitely did NOT know everything at this point- and I feel Christ is reminding them that stage by stage, God knows where they are and will provide for them. And God expects us to act to the best of our ability at each stage. It made me think of the scripture from the sermon on the mount:
"Therefore, take no thought, saying, what shall we eat, or what shall we drink, or wherewithal shall we be clothed? ...For your Heavenly Father knoweth ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you."
(Matthew 6:31-33)
God knows where we are. He knows where we've been. And Christ has the ability to completely understand our hearts, nature, and actions in a way that no one else can. With the help of Christ and Heavenly Father, we each have the ability to progress on our journey, whatever it is that is required of us. What an amazing promise!
I feel like I'm kinda all over the place with this study, but I just want to say, I love that Christ used some of his last peaceful moments before the atonement to teach his disciples of eternal truths that would help them grow without him there. I love that he was able to make the most of the time that he had with them, acknowledging that they are all imperfect, and at different stages of their progression, but still living with them and being with them, regardless of the mistakes he knew they would make. It's all about that eternal love, you guys. Anyhowsers, I sure am enjoying reading more about Christ's life and am excited for what I will continue to learn.
Thanks for all you do and all you are!
Love,
Emily
Anyhows, Christ knows that this will be the most difficult, terrifying, and most painful thing he has ever and will ever do in his life. Despite this knowledge, he is able to make the most of the time he has left with his disciples and not only enjoy his last passover (aka his last supper) with them, but also turn it into a teaching opportunity for everyone there. Man oh man, what a guy, right? He says, "I have desired to eat this passover with you before I suffer," as they are about to eat.
So what enables him to focus on those around him, instead of having a pity party (which would totally be fine, knowing what it is he's about to endure and experience)? What keeps him from shutting down, wanting to be alone, and taking out any fears or concerns he may have on those closest to him?
I feel it all comes down to one thing: he remembers the WHY. He knows why he is performing the atonement in the first place- to allow each and everyone of his disciples (and the rest of us) an opportunity to overcome the effects of physical death, as well as each on of our shortcomings, mistakes, imperfections, etc. Because he knew and internalized these reasons- he kept his mind focused on the eternal, Christ had the ability to sit down with these men and teach them the why as well. Not only that- but he was able to sit down with both Peter AND Judas- both were to betray him, in two totally different ways- and he did not attack either one of them. He did not tell either of them to leave. He simply stated what would happen, and continued to spend his evening with those closest to him. He knew both their hearts (Peter acting out of fear and weakness, while Judas was acting selfishly) and recognized the atonement he was about to perform would make up for every unjust action about to take place.
He tells Peter, "When thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren." For some reason, I thought he only told Peter this after his resurrection, but I didn't realize Christ said this to Peter beforehand. Christ knows where each one of us is individually on our journey. He knew where Peter was spiritually in that moment, and he knew he'd mess up that night, multiple times. But Christ also knew who Peter was to become. He knew that Peter had the potential to choose to become one of the greatest apostles, someone on whom he could completely rely. And it was Peter's mistakes that enabled him to become that great apostle.
A little further on in the conversation, Christ asks,
"When I sent you without purse, let him take it, and likewise his scrip: and he hath no sword, let him sell his garment and buy one." (Luke 22:35-38)
When the apostles first set out with Christ, they had simply their faith to go off of. As they spent more time with him, their faith grew, their knowledge expanded, and their hearts and actions began to change as their understanding increased. But they definitely did NOT know everything at this point- and I feel Christ is reminding them that stage by stage, God knows where they are and will provide for them. And God expects us to act to the best of our ability at each stage. It made me think of the scripture from the sermon on the mount:
"Therefore, take no thought, saying, what shall we eat, or what shall we drink, or wherewithal shall we be clothed? ...For your Heavenly Father knoweth ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you."
(Matthew 6:31-33)
God knows where we are. He knows where we've been. And Christ has the ability to completely understand our hearts, nature, and actions in a way that no one else can. With the help of Christ and Heavenly Father, we each have the ability to progress on our journey, whatever it is that is required of us. What an amazing promise!
I feel like I'm kinda all over the place with this study, but I just want to say, I love that Christ used some of his last peaceful moments before the atonement to teach his disciples of eternal truths that would help them grow without him there. I love that he was able to make the most of the time that he had with them, acknowledging that they are all imperfect, and at different stages of their progression, but still living with them and being with them, regardless of the mistakes he knew they would make. It's all about that eternal love, you guys. Anyhowsers, I sure am enjoying reading more about Christ's life and am excited for what I will continue to learn.
Thanks for all you do and all you are!
Love,
Emily
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Look At Your Life Through Heaven's Eyes
I had a lovely study today, focusing on the talk, "Is It Still Wonderful To You?" by Bishop Gerald Causse. Throughout this talk, Causse asks the question, what are we seeing? Are we still looking at the gospel from an astonished stand point? Or are we past feeling and unable to recognize miracles when they come our way?
While reading through this talk, I was impressed to ask myself the following questions:
What am I seeing right now?
What am I failing to see?
Am I seeing things as they really are or as I want them to be?
How can I tell what is reality?
Am I still looking for miracles daily or am I content with what I have already received?
Am I actively seeking the companionship of the spirit?
And (this one's from Causse) can I still hear, see, feel, and marvel?
To answer quite honestly, I am not quite as involved in these areas of my life as I'd like to be. But I know that I can change that. Isn't that just the best. God is good. Yes indeed.
Causse talks about the group of people in the Book of Mormon who eventually numb themselves to the spirit and previous revelations they received because they were not continuing to see the gospel through what he calls, "new eyes". They had seen the miraculous sign of Christ's birth, a star that caused the night to remain bright as day, saving their lives from the wicked men who wanted the sign to be false, but even after this miracle, some of these people, "began to be less and less astonished at a sign or a wonder from heaven...and began to disbelieve all which they had heard and seen."
What in the world? Why do we do that as humans? I know I definitely fall into that pattern time and time again, but why? I don't think there is just one answer- but I do know that along with the suggestions Bishop Causse states (which I shall list shortly), there are many ways to overcome this tendency to disregard what we have experienced and know to be true. Rationalizing? Yeah, that's what I'll call it for now. Any hows, here are 3 main points that Causse shares to help us see the gospel through new eyes and continue to be astonished by the daily miracles.
1. Never tire of discovering/rediscovering any truth of the gospel
2. Anchor your faith in plain and simple truths
3. Invite, seek, and cherish the companionship of the Holy Ghost
Along with Causse's points, I feel gratitude is a huge way to constantly feel the presence of the spirit and maintain a sense of awe and astonishment at the gospel in my life. I also remember my mission president bringing this topic up half way through my mission. He used the story of Ammon- from the time he defended the king's flock, all the way up until all the Lamanites were converted through his preaching. Their reaction to the miracles he was able to perform was "and they were exceedingly astonished." President Anderson reminded us that our role (at the time as representatives of Christ, and right now, as disciples of Christ) is to provide an environment in which the spirit can astonish those around us. And that cannot happen if we are not having astonishing experiences ourselves.
I know that what Bishop Causse says about the spirit is 100% true: "When we have the spirit with us, our spiritual senses are sharpened and our memory is kindled so we cannot forget the miracles and signs we have witnessed." Living a life consistent with the teachings of Christ allows us to feel the constant comfort, guidance, and truth of the spirit. I know that regardless of the mistakes we make along the way, the weaknesses that may feel like they are holding us back, and the opposition we may face, as we give God our best, he will allow us to see the world through his eyes. Heavenly eyes.
And as we take the time to marvel at the gospel individually and on a personal basis with God and Christ, we will be able to better share the sweet fruit that comes from living the gospel.. Kinda an Enos situation. It was only when he had his own experience with the atoning power of Christ that he had the desire and ability to help his homies, the Nephites, and his enemies. What a guy. As we seek to have personal experiences where we are astonished with simple and plain truths of the gospel, we will be better equipped to help those around us, strive to be our best selves, and be his hands while here on the earth. I am so grateful for the ability to welcome the spirit more fully into my life as I adjust my heart and actions to the path Christ has set for us all. I know that God is so proud of the progress we are both making and I am so grateful to be learning and growing with you. Thank you for all you are, miss Rachel. I sure do love you!
Love,
Emily
While reading through this talk, I was impressed to ask myself the following questions:
What am I seeing right now?
What am I failing to see?
Am I seeing things as they really are or as I want them to be?
How can I tell what is reality?
Am I still looking for miracles daily or am I content with what I have already received?
Am I actively seeking the companionship of the spirit?
And (this one's from Causse) can I still hear, see, feel, and marvel?
To answer quite honestly, I am not quite as involved in these areas of my life as I'd like to be. But I know that I can change that. Isn't that just the best. God is good. Yes indeed.
Causse talks about the group of people in the Book of Mormon who eventually numb themselves to the spirit and previous revelations they received because they were not continuing to see the gospel through what he calls, "new eyes". They had seen the miraculous sign of Christ's birth, a star that caused the night to remain bright as day, saving their lives from the wicked men who wanted the sign to be false, but even after this miracle, some of these people, "began to be less and less astonished at a sign or a wonder from heaven...and began to disbelieve all which they had heard and seen."
What in the world? Why do we do that as humans? I know I definitely fall into that pattern time and time again, but why? I don't think there is just one answer- but I do know that along with the suggestions Bishop Causse states (which I shall list shortly), there are many ways to overcome this tendency to disregard what we have experienced and know to be true. Rationalizing? Yeah, that's what I'll call it for now. Any hows, here are 3 main points that Causse shares to help us see the gospel through new eyes and continue to be astonished by the daily miracles.
1. Never tire of discovering/rediscovering any truth of the gospel
2. Anchor your faith in plain and simple truths
3. Invite, seek, and cherish the companionship of the Holy Ghost
Along with Causse's points, I feel gratitude is a huge way to constantly feel the presence of the spirit and maintain a sense of awe and astonishment at the gospel in my life. I also remember my mission president bringing this topic up half way through my mission. He used the story of Ammon- from the time he defended the king's flock, all the way up until all the Lamanites were converted through his preaching. Their reaction to the miracles he was able to perform was "and they were exceedingly astonished." President Anderson reminded us that our role (at the time as representatives of Christ, and right now, as disciples of Christ) is to provide an environment in which the spirit can astonish those around us. And that cannot happen if we are not having astonishing experiences ourselves.
I know that what Bishop Causse says about the spirit is 100% true: "When we have the spirit with us, our spiritual senses are sharpened and our memory is kindled so we cannot forget the miracles and signs we have witnessed." Living a life consistent with the teachings of Christ allows us to feel the constant comfort, guidance, and truth of the spirit. I know that regardless of the mistakes we make along the way, the weaknesses that may feel like they are holding us back, and the opposition we may face, as we give God our best, he will allow us to see the world through his eyes. Heavenly eyes.
And as we take the time to marvel at the gospel individually and on a personal basis with God and Christ, we will be able to better share the sweet fruit that comes from living the gospel.. Kinda an Enos situation. It was only when he had his own experience with the atoning power of Christ that he had the desire and ability to help his homies, the Nephites, and his enemies. What a guy. As we seek to have personal experiences where we are astonished with simple and plain truths of the gospel, we will be better equipped to help those around us, strive to be our best selves, and be his hands while here on the earth. I am so grateful for the ability to welcome the spirit more fully into my life as I adjust my heart and actions to the path Christ has set for us all. I know that God is so proud of the progress we are both making and I am so grateful to be learning and growing with you. Thank you for all you are, miss Rachel. I sure do love you!
Love,
Emily
Monday, May 18, 2015
Stripped to Nothing but Faith
Like I said in my comment on your post, I gave a lesson this week on spiritual battles, focusing on the moment where we are most spent in every possible way. Where all our weaknesses are just out there for everyone to see. And we feel so weak that we don't know how to carry on.
I love what the The Infinite Atonement says about this moment, for Christ and for us:
"The Lord's soul-cry, 'My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?' (Mark 15:34) was not a rhetorical question. It was the earnest pleading of a divine being, who, under intense pain, sought answers and comfort in his hour of need. There comes a time in each man's life, regardless of his intellectual acumen, when he must rely on faith and faith alone. Abraham experienced it as he drew his knife from the sheath on Mt. Moriah; Moses felt it as he marched toward the Red Sea. In each case there was no apparent solution at hand other than to simply obey; all the options of mortal reasoning had been exhausted. There was only faith to cling to, faith, in its purest form."
"Once again the Savior proved to be the Great Exemplar. Not only did he know the totality of mortal temptation, not only did he know the pain and infirmities of man, not only did he know the consequences of all sin, but now he knew what it was like to have every vestige of reason stripped away, so that faith and faith alone is all that remains to carry one forward. All that he had intellectually was an unanswered why, but what he had spiritually was faith, and with that faith he pressed forward and descended beneath it all."
Sometimes we get to a point in life where we are stripped of everything but faith. And with faith, and faith alone, we must walk forward. I feel that is where I am. Since I've been home from my mission, I've been getting stripped of many things which causes my weaknesses to be even more exposed. But that is essential in the sanctification process...it is still scary for me. It is hard to be vulnerable. To feel uncomfortable inside yourself. It is hard to feel that you have lost what you have gained. However, if we allow ourselves to be lost, not lost in sin, but lost in the darkness holding onto the light of God, than we will find ourselves again. An even truer, freer, more authentic self. Our capacity to feel, think, and understand will increase. The process of being stripped down to nothing but faith is terrifying. I don't know whether I'm still in the stripping down process (that sounds kinda funny when I put it that way) or if I'm in the nothing but faith moment, but either way, I'll just keep moving forward trying to use what I have. Sometimes all I have in these moments is the knowledge that God loves me. But that is enough. I always have just enough to get me through. And when I make it through, I receive an abundance so that there is not even room to receive it.
God is so good to us! Love ya,
Rachel
I love what the The Infinite Atonement says about this moment, for Christ and for us:
"The Lord's soul-cry, 'My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?' (Mark 15:34) was not a rhetorical question. It was the earnest pleading of a divine being, who, under intense pain, sought answers and comfort in his hour of need. There comes a time in each man's life, regardless of his intellectual acumen, when he must rely on faith and faith alone. Abraham experienced it as he drew his knife from the sheath on Mt. Moriah; Moses felt it as he marched toward the Red Sea. In each case there was no apparent solution at hand other than to simply obey; all the options of mortal reasoning had been exhausted. There was only faith to cling to, faith, in its purest form."
"Once again the Savior proved to be the Great Exemplar. Not only did he know the totality of mortal temptation, not only did he know the pain and infirmities of man, not only did he know the consequences of all sin, but now he knew what it was like to have every vestige of reason stripped away, so that faith and faith alone is all that remains to carry one forward. All that he had intellectually was an unanswered why, but what he had spiritually was faith, and with that faith he pressed forward and descended beneath it all."
Sometimes we get to a point in life where we are stripped of everything but faith. And with faith, and faith alone, we must walk forward. I feel that is where I am. Since I've been home from my mission, I've been getting stripped of many things which causes my weaknesses to be even more exposed. But that is essential in the sanctification process...it is still scary for me. It is hard to be vulnerable. To feel uncomfortable inside yourself. It is hard to feel that you have lost what you have gained. However, if we allow ourselves to be lost, not lost in sin, but lost in the darkness holding onto the light of God, than we will find ourselves again. An even truer, freer, more authentic self. Our capacity to feel, think, and understand will increase. The process of being stripped down to nothing but faith is terrifying. I don't know whether I'm still in the stripping down process (that sounds kinda funny when I put it that way) or if I'm in the nothing but faith moment, but either way, I'll just keep moving forward trying to use what I have. Sometimes all I have in these moments is the knowledge that God loves me. But that is enough. I always have just enough to get me through. And when I make it through, I receive an abundance so that there is not even room to receive it.
God is so good to us! Love ya,
Rachel
Monday, May 4, 2015
Enabling Us to Be Our Best
Holy canolis- sorry for the brief hiatus there. It's been a jam packed last couple of months. As school is drawing to a close, I've been able to spend a little amount of time reflecting over this last semester. I have definitely learned a ton about working together, immersing myself 100%, and taking time to enjoy the journey, rather than barreling through mindlessly to the finish line.
Although many personal weaknesses came to light throughout the semester, I have come to find that as I continue to rely on the enabling power of the atonement of Christ, I can make the most of each encounter with a weakness. I am so glad for everything I have learned and will continue to learn. There are still times- like this morning- where I wonder- will I ever be able to actually change? It feels like these behaviors are so deeply rooted within me, that no matter how hard I try to be better.
Something I realized during my study today though- no matter how hard we try, it will honestly never be enough on our own. But as we give our best to Christ, he guarantees no matter how weak, small, or hopeless we may feel, we can accomplish absolutely anything!
I read the talk, "Be Honest" by elder Bednar today- and so much of what he said emphasized the importance of relying on the atonement in all areas of our lives. I feel like I try so hard to fix everything on my own before taking it to God- so much that I want to give when it feels like I'm not getting anywhere. But Elder Bednar points out, "Becoming people of integrity and honesty does not occur quickly or all at once, nor it is merely a matter of greater personal discipline. It is a change of disposition- a change of heart." By consistently and consciously surrendering our hearts to Christ, he promises that he will "make weak things strong" and allow us the chance to change our very hearts, not just our mindset. He will help us have the desire to become better, the discipline to do so, and grant us the strength to become the best version of ourselves, "And because thou hast seen thy weakness, thou shalt be made strong." ether 12:37
It all starts on the personal level. If we can learn to be more honest with ourselves, we are able to better maintain an honest and genuine version of ourselves with others. As we remain accountable and honest with God, we will naturally be honest with others around us, knowing that everyone we interact with is a child of God. Does that change the way you would interact with others, no matter how annoying, scary, mean spirited, or seemingly impossible they are to work with? Knowing that they, like yourself, are a child of your Father in Heaven, who knows you, your heart, your situation and context, as well as theirs? It changes everything for me. I feel like if I had this view in every conversation, I'd be far more bold, way more empathetic, caring, and set much healthier boundaries.
I want to become a much more deeply devoted and active member of the gospel. I know when I get comfortable, I tend to float, but I don't want to be a floater. I want to be a woman of integrity in all I do- gospel related, school, family, friends. I want to be someone that God can rely on no matter what- and because of my integrity and loyalty to God, I want that to show in every way I live.
I love you so much miss Rachel, and I hope to see you soon!
Love,
Emily
Although many personal weaknesses came to light throughout the semester, I have come to find that as I continue to rely on the enabling power of the atonement of Christ, I can make the most of each encounter with a weakness. I am so glad for everything I have learned and will continue to learn. There are still times- like this morning- where I wonder- will I ever be able to actually change? It feels like these behaviors are so deeply rooted within me, that no matter how hard I try to be better.
Something I realized during my study today though- no matter how hard we try, it will honestly never be enough on our own. But as we give our best to Christ, he guarantees no matter how weak, small, or hopeless we may feel, we can accomplish absolutely anything!
I read the talk, "Be Honest" by elder Bednar today- and so much of what he said emphasized the importance of relying on the atonement in all areas of our lives. I feel like I try so hard to fix everything on my own before taking it to God- so much that I want to give when it feels like I'm not getting anywhere. But Elder Bednar points out, "Becoming people of integrity and honesty does not occur quickly or all at once, nor it is merely a matter of greater personal discipline. It is a change of disposition- a change of heart." By consistently and consciously surrendering our hearts to Christ, he promises that he will "make weak things strong" and allow us the chance to change our very hearts, not just our mindset. He will help us have the desire to become better, the discipline to do so, and grant us the strength to become the best version of ourselves, "And because thou hast seen thy weakness, thou shalt be made strong." ether 12:37
It all starts on the personal level. If we can learn to be more honest with ourselves, we are able to better maintain an honest and genuine version of ourselves with others. As we remain accountable and honest with God, we will naturally be honest with others around us, knowing that everyone we interact with is a child of God. Does that change the way you would interact with others, no matter how annoying, scary, mean spirited, or seemingly impossible they are to work with? Knowing that they, like yourself, are a child of your Father in Heaven, who knows you, your heart, your situation and context, as well as theirs? It changes everything for me. I feel like if I had this view in every conversation, I'd be far more bold, way more empathetic, caring, and set much healthier boundaries.
I want to become a much more deeply devoted and active member of the gospel. I know when I get comfortable, I tend to float, but I don't want to be a floater. I want to be a woman of integrity in all I do- gospel related, school, family, friends. I want to be someone that God can rely on no matter what- and because of my integrity and loyalty to God, I want that to show in every way I live.
I love you so much miss Rachel, and I hope to see you soon!
Love,
Emily
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